For every text from bell customers, long distance phone call from bell customers, facebook shares and tweet (using #bellletstalk) raises five cents for mental health initiatives in Canada. More importantly, it helps people share their stories with others and let those that may be struggling in silence know they are truly not alone.
I have lived with bi polar disorder probably since I was 17 or 18 years old. I always knew something was a little off with my mind but, did not know anything about mental health or bi polar back then. I just felt different. I did suffer in silence for a very long time and it was not until I learned to share, open up and ask for help that I was able to begin the healing process. Through the support of my friends, family and my amazing wife, Jodi, I have gotten to a point in my life where I am no longer ashamed. I have no issue sharing my story with others as I believe that in sharing part of my story helps others that live with mental illness to know that it is ok to not be ok.
It is important to realize that mental illness does not just affect the person that is living with it but, also those connected to them whether it be friends, family or partners. My journey through life with bi polar has affected a lot of people along the way and has often put an immense strain on relationships, jobs and physical health. Today is very important for everyone affected by mental illness, not just those living with it.
As I am up early this morning watching Milos Raonic attempt to take down one of the greatest tennis players ever in Rafael Nadal, I reflect on how fortunate I am to be here today. I have had thoughts of ending my life thousands of times over the last twenty plus years but, I am still here. I was able to find a way to continue fighting, pushing through the darkest of times. It has not been easy but, I am thankful I am still here.
You are not alone
You are not weak
There is help
There are people that care about you
The light will shine through
You are worth it
You deserve joy and happiness
Keep fighting
Shawn