Good Week

Instead of writing on Sunday about any stress or worry I may be experiencing,  I thought it would be best to start the weekend off with a positive post.

I had a great week this week.  I was back in a zone again.  I also had an opportunity to work quite a bit with Heather.  When I work with her,  their is no stress which makes it easier to deal with whatever the day may bring.  I was happy I had a chance to catch up with Dave this week and hear about all the great things going on in his life.  I had a really good time with my boss at the landscape meeting and quite enjoyed checking out some Deere equipment.  I also liked listening to the guest speaker who was articulate and got through a lot of information in a short amount of time.

Today was a good example of how far I have come.  We had a late start due to weather so I did not get to work until 9:30.  We got to our first property and Jessie realized the hydraulic fluid in the Ferris was out.  We have been having some issues with this a few times this year.  We had a bottle of what we were pretty sure was hydraulic fluid but, were not sure.  I called my boss to ask and decided to blow some leaves off the lawn as it was covered in order to make it easier cut.  I decided that if I had not heard back from my boss about the fluid,  we would just use the Deere to cut the lawn.  Now in the past,  a hiccup like this would have really thrown me.  I would have been completely stressed out and would not have been able to make a decision without worrying.  Instead,  I made a call quickly and did not concern myself too much about the Ferris.  We did not do anything to cause the problem so there was no point in worrying about it.  Just moved on and finished what we were there for.

Now the last few weekends have been a struggle for me as you may have read.  I am going to make a conscience effort to enjoy the entire weekend and not think about what Monday has in store.  As the past has taught me,  spending my time filled with self induced anxiety serves no purpose.  I cannot control anything other than the rest of my night tonight.  Living my time in the past or future is only going to stall my growth mentally.  I have come so far and want to continue to learn how to better cope with my thoughts.

I am feeling content at this moment.  Sitting on the couch with Ollie watching a movie with Jodi.  Life is good.

Have an amazing weekend.  Take care,  Shawn.


 “You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection”
― Gautama Buddha