The madness has begun and what a roller coaster ride it has been so far. Mercer put a big dent in my bracket as I had Duke going to the final eight. They played really well though and deserved to win that game. They played great team basketball and stuck together throughout. I did pick SF Austin to upset VCU, what a crazy game that was. I thought it was over and then saw they hit a three pointer with the foul with three seconds left. Who would have thought. Watching Pitt and Florida right now, pulling for the Panthers to take down the number one seed.
I have been doing fairly well of late. My mind has been relatively balanced and I am feeling positive moving forward. I started going to a mood disorder group in Guelph and it has been quite beneficial to me. It is nice to share things with people who understand where you are coming from and have no interest in judging you as a person. I will continue to go as much as I can as I believe as I have found strength in the commonalities we share in that room.
The landscaping season is right around the corner and I am trying to plan for positive outcomes rather than negative outcomes. I know what to expect and know some of the challenges that I may face. There are so many positive aspects of my work and I need to focus on those. Taking one day at a time and not allowing myself to let things linger in my mind at the end of the day. Just do the best I can each day and then try again the next day. We have so much work ahead of us as there is still a lot of damage from the ice storm to clean up. In an ideal situation, there would be no snow on the ground, no damage and we could start our regular spring clean ups. Well, mother nature has had other plans so we just have to make the best of things and chip a way at one property at a time.
My medical for my D license is going to take another few months. I am not too worried about it at this point and I am sure it will work out. There are so many things in our lives that our out of our control. What I do control is how I react to them and I want to work on that more in the next few months.
Clara Hughes has started her cycling journey throughout the country to help raise funds and spread the word surrounding mental health. If you want to follow her or donate funds, her website is at www.clarasbigride.bell.ca I urge you to take a look at her site. You may learn some things about mental health and you may be able to help someone out there. The more we talk, the more we learn.
Hope this finds you well. I will try to write more frequently as I have really missing jotting down my thoughts.
Take care, Shawn.
As Ellen always says, Be Kind to One Another
Saturday, 22 March 2014
Monday, 3 March 2014
Been a While
I woke up today and my mind instantly started racing. It was not a good start to the day. Not sure why exactly as I did have a good sleep last night. Too many things on my mind I guess. I was just thinking far too much this morning and the negative thoughts were prevailing over the positive ones which in turn affected my mood.
I had another case of the downzies today and decided it was time I got in to see someone to help process some of my thoughts. I have an appointment at Homewood Addictions Services with a great counselor who I have seen in the past. I also had a chance to speak with a local therapist and I am thinking of setting something up with her as well to check in more regularly. It is important for me to reach out for professional help which is something I have not been doing over the last year. When I find counselors/therapists that I feel comfortable with, it helps me immensely to share my thoughts without worrying about being judged. I always feel like a small weight has been lifted after good appointments and I leave feeling positive more times than not.
I wish this damn snow would melt. The landscaping season is right around the corner and this weather and prolonged winter is going to make things difficult for us. We have so much work to do before we can even start spring clean ups. There is so much damage from the ice storm still and we will definitely have our work cut out for us. I am scared of being overwhelmed early on but, I know we can only take it one day at a time. I always have anxiety when the season approaches. I have difficulty with transitions and I always worry that I will not be able to handle the various situations that arise in a long season. I have proved that I am capable but, I always seem to doubt myself. Jesse and Heather are coming back which is great. I love working with both of them and they make getting through the difficult days a little easier. As of right now, we are two people short from last year so hopefully manage alright. I foresee quite a few six day weeks for the first month or so which is fine by me. As long as we find ways as a team to limit some of the stress and work together to be an efficient unit. I know we can find a way to get through, we always do it seems.
I have not written in my blog for quite some time. I have started writing a few times but, then lost interest or became distracted. I really need to make more of an effort to write consistently as it always makes me feel better. When I least feel like writing, I should write. I am not writing to become famous or anything but, sharing some of my thoughts here is therapeutic for me. If no one ever read these posts, it would still be beneficial for me to write. It helps get some things off my mind and I truly enjoy the art of writing.
Before I go, I just wanted to say how proud I was of all our Canadian athletes at the winter Olympics. What an amazing journey they took us on over the two weeks and how well they represented our country. The Olympics has become more commercial as the years have gone by but, their is still a purity that I love about the competition. Go Canada Go!!!!
Take care, Shawn.
“Hide your craziness behind a beautiful smile. That's all you need.”
― Paulo Coelho
I had another case of the downzies today and decided it was time I got in to see someone to help process some of my thoughts. I have an appointment at Homewood Addictions Services with a great counselor who I have seen in the past. I also had a chance to speak with a local therapist and I am thinking of setting something up with her as well to check in more regularly. It is important for me to reach out for professional help which is something I have not been doing over the last year. When I find counselors/therapists that I feel comfortable with, it helps me immensely to share my thoughts without worrying about being judged. I always feel like a small weight has been lifted after good appointments and I leave feeling positive more times than not.
I wish this damn snow would melt. The landscaping season is right around the corner and this weather and prolonged winter is going to make things difficult for us. We have so much work to do before we can even start spring clean ups. There is so much damage from the ice storm still and we will definitely have our work cut out for us. I am scared of being overwhelmed early on but, I know we can only take it one day at a time. I always have anxiety when the season approaches. I have difficulty with transitions and I always worry that I will not be able to handle the various situations that arise in a long season. I have proved that I am capable but, I always seem to doubt myself. Jesse and Heather are coming back which is great. I love working with both of them and they make getting through the difficult days a little easier. As of right now, we are two people short from last year so hopefully manage alright. I foresee quite a few six day weeks for the first month or so which is fine by me. As long as we find ways as a team to limit some of the stress and work together to be an efficient unit. I know we can find a way to get through, we always do it seems.
I have not written in my blog for quite some time. I have started writing a few times but, then lost interest or became distracted. I really need to make more of an effort to write consistently as it always makes me feel better. When I least feel like writing, I should write. I am not writing to become famous or anything but, sharing some of my thoughts here is therapeutic for me. If no one ever read these posts, it would still be beneficial for me to write. It helps get some things off my mind and I truly enjoy the art of writing.
Before I go, I just wanted to say how proud I was of all our Canadian athletes at the winter Olympics. What an amazing journey they took us on over the two weeks and how well they represented our country. The Olympics has become more commercial as the years have gone by but, their is still a purity that I love about the competition. Go Canada Go!!!!
Take care, Shawn.
“Hide your craziness behind a beautiful smile. That's all you need.”
― Paulo Coelho
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