Amends

 It has been quite the winter here.  So much snow.  With a lot of inclement weather, I have driven past many serious accidents in the past few months.  It has driven home the point to me that tomorrow is not promised to us and we need to take advantage of being in the present each day.

With that being said, I felt it important that while I am still alive and well that I write an amends post.  I have lived with bi-polar two disorder and addictions to alcohol and gambling for most of my adult life.

Although it has been a very challenging and long journey for me,  the hardest part has always been the shame and guilt of how my choices, behaviours and actions have affected others.  I can now say that I am very proud of the person I am but, that was not always the case.  I would give anything to take back some of my choices along the way and not being able to do that tormented me for a very long time. 

My mental disorder and addictions are no excuse.  I am still responsible for my choices, actions and behaviours in my life thus far.  I wanted to take this time to reach out to anyone that was ever impacted by me in a negative way and let you know that I am deeply sorry.  I can't expect forgiveness,  just know that I am trying my very best to live my best life now,  set a good example for others and share my story in hopes of helping others not only to makes it easier for those suffering, but also for the people, family and friends that are impacted a long the way.

Take care, Shawn.