Nervous Energy

I am up watching Sunday night football.  It is a good game so far,  the Niners look pretty solid moving forward this season.

I would normally be in bed at this point as I have to get up for work at 06:00 but,  I just do not feel like it at this point.  I am really nervous about work tomorrow and my mind is restless.  Things did not go as smoothly as I would have liked on Friday so I am quite anxious about how tomorrow will unfold.  I always plan for the worst case scenario in my head which is not an effective tool in planning for a positive day.  As history has shown me,  things never are as bad as I make them out to be.  I realize that but, still have difficulty in processing that fact prior to facing the day ahead.  I seem to make plans to have a really shitty day before it has even started.  Hopefully I will be able to just focus on small aspects of the day.  Getting up for work.  Having a coffee.  Making a lunch.  Driving to work.  Sitting down for morning meeting and so forth.  If I can do this,  maybe it will help me realize that there is really nothing to fret about.

That is all I really wanted to write about tonight.  I already feel better and think I should make my way upstairs to get some sleep.  I also wanted to thank everyone who has taken the time to read my blog,  it means a lot to me.  Hope it has shed some light on some of the struggles mental health can pose to individuals.

Have a great week.  Take care,  Shawn.

Keep pushing yourself on a daily basis.

shawnadams90@bell.net