Pride

Well,  I have finished the long grind of the landscaping season.  Yesterday was my last day and I am extremely proud of myself for pushing through till the end.  I am so excited to be done and give my body, mind and soul some time to recoup a bit.  I am hoping for some snow soon for plowing but,  I will definitely take some well deserved time to relax.

This was the longest I have worked consecutively without an extended period of time off in my life.  It may not seem like much but, it is an amazing accomplishment on a personal level.  As I have mentioned in an earlier blog,  I have always struggled in work environments and therefore have not had much stability in that regard.  This job had its challenges at times but,  it was something that I felt comfortable in and that I had a lot of success with.  I take a lot of pride in my work ethic and quality of work in landscaping and it showed this year.  When I look back at the scope of work we accomplished this year,  it inspires me.  You would be hard pressed to find a better landscaping crew than Smitty and I am glad I got another chance to work with him again this year.

You may find it curious that I would be so excited to be out of work for the time being.  There is the money factor and not having a steady pay check for a while but,  I do not concern myself with that at this point.  If you had access to a reel of my thoughts piercing through my mind at times over the last eight months,  you would understand my jubilation.  I would say this year was much better as I was able to channel my thoughts a little easier and that helped me when I simply wanted to give up.

Amaya was a big part of my success as well.  Losing her was extremely difficult to comprehend and I still miss her every day.  I often looked up in to the sky and talked to her.  Some nights it would be a star, another it may be a well lit moon but,  I knew she was up there looking out for me.  I will continue to look to her as a constant reminder of what is really important in my daily life.

Hope all is well with you wherever you may be.

Take care, Shawn.

The climb to the top of the mountain may be treacherous but,  the view from the top will always make the journey worthwhile.