Spring is Near

I made a decision today about my plans for the spring.  I am going back to work for the same company for a third season.  I was already leaning that way and then they offered to enroll me in a landscape maintenance course in March to learn some more skills.  I wrote back and said I was in for another season.  I am really looking forward to the course and feel I will learn a lot about some things I am not as confident with.  I am relieved that I was able to make the decision today so I can focus on mentally preparing for the eight month season.  I know all the properties, am comfortable with most jobs and feel landscaping is something I can excel at.  There will be challenges mentally for me with any job and it gives me great comfort going back to familiar territory.

I have been back to Homewood in Guelph the last few weeks.  I started seeing an amazing addictions counselor and am excited about sharing some thoughts with a professional again.  I realized recently that I have been talking the talk and not walking the walk.  I have been letting old habits creep in over the last year and it was time for me to get my shit together.  This is my third addictions counselor at Homewood and I have had success with each one I have seen.  They are really good at what they do and have all made me feel comfortable in a therapeutic setting.  As I have mentioned in an earlier blog,  addictive behaviour is often connected to bi-polar disorder.  It becomes frustrating dealing with mental struggles and addictive tendencies all at once but,  I am more confident now that I can find a good balance in my life.  Talking to a professional is important for me as it is not fair to family and friends to be responsible for all of my supports.  I have to take more initiative in being my own ambassador and putting things in place to help me succeed in daily life.

We are in for the night getting ready to watch the Trinity Western Spartans go for another Canada West Title.  Western just beat Waterloo in the OUA semi-finals and have booked their ticket to nationals.  Watching makes me wish I was still playing,  maybe I can find a tournament or two before the end of the year.

Have a great weekend.  Take care,  Shawn.

Find the simple pleasures in every day life.