Yo-Yo

I have been kind of up and down of late.  Some moments I feel like giving up,  others I feel like conquering the world around me.  Some moments I feel like a champ and others I feel like a complete loser. Sometimes my mind is at peace and others, it fucks with me.  I feel like a human yo-yo and it gets frustrating.  I did not take a shower in a few days as I did not really care too much what I looked like.  My gym membership expires today so I will not have that part of my daily routine for a while which is disappointing.  It was a good way to let out some frustrations and helped me feel more in touch with my emotions.  I am hoping to get a new one next week.

I am looking forward to spring.  Not that I know what I am doing yet but,  I am anxious to get working again.  Routine will be good for me.  I am excited about Dave's wedding but, am not sure how we are going to manage it.  I also am not sure if I can even get time off work for a week.  Really depends on what I end up doing employment wise. I am excited to cut our grass again.  I am looking forward to doing the Chapman's hedge.  Swimming at my parents seems like it is just around the corner.

We are supposed to get a big snow fall on Thursday so maybe I will end up at the air port.  I got to play around with a skid steer last time out to load salt on a few of the trucks.  Really wish I was able to plow but,  I do not mind hand shoveling and salting.  My back has been bothering me so hopefully I will be able to manage alright.

Hoping to watch some Criminal Minds tonight.  Maybe catch some of the Leafs game too.

Enjoy your week.  Take care,  Shawn.