Happy Tuesday

I had a first aide course today with my boss down in Guelph.  I have probably take first aide and cpr five or six times before but,  it was definitely good to do a refresher.  You never know when it may become useful, may even save a life one day.

I was at a landscape maintenance course last week in Milton.  I learned a lot and am really glad I was fortunate enough to go.  There was a tonne of information to take in but,  it helped my level of confidence which is a  big part of why I wanted to go.  The best part was on the Monday when we learned about mechanical shit.  I learned more in one day than I have in my entire life about how things run and picked up some great tips.  The course made me anxious to get back to work and start shaping some plants again.

I do have some anxiety around going back but, it does not appear to be as bad this time.  I know what to expect for the most part and know the majority of our properties.  There is the matter of who I will be working with this season.  Marcel is not coming back and Smitty is on the fence right now.  So I know I will be working with one new guy and if Smitty does not come back, I will have a lot more responsibility which I am pretty nervous about.  Those are things that are out of my control though, so I should not worry too much about them right now.  I have faith in my own abilities and my work ethic has never been in question.  That is all I can control,  my own effort.  I know shit will create havoc in my mind at times but,  I just have to continue to strive for more good days than bad ones.  I want to break previous cycles and be better at adapting to situations as they arise.  I have to understand that even if someone gets pissed of at me, it is not an attack on my personal character.  Shit just happens sometimes.

Jodi is off for March break this week so it has been awesome to have some time together.  We have to start making some plans for the wedding soon.  We both have to get passports again so we need to start that process in the very near future as July will be here before we know it.  Ollie has been doing really well lately.  I am sure he is excited about the milder temperatures as it means he gets out for more exercise.  Got him a treat for dinner tonight so he was pretty happy with me today.

That is all for now.  Have a great week.  Take care,  Shawn.

Too much stress is something that should be avoided.  Take some time for yourself and breathe in some of the simplicity of life.