Good Morning

I woke up this morning feeling much better.  I had a good sleep and felt really positive about the day ahead.  I can relax and enjoy my time with Jodi and Ollie.  I do not need to worry about getting through next week as it is not here yet.

I took Ollie for a play at the arena this morning.  He had a good run and we bumped in to another dog as we were leaving.  Ollie ran right up to me and then waited by the car.  He had not interest in interacting with the other dog who was quite friendly.  It still bothers me that a few attacks on him at the dog park have deterred him from wanting to approach other dogs.  It is unfortunate that some owners take aggressive dogs there and make it difficult for passive dogs like Ollie to trust they are safe.  I will never take Ollie back there as he does not know how to defend himself.  We are alike in a way.  We both have issues standing up for ourselves at times.  Maybe that is why we share such a strong bond.  I stand up for him and he helps me navigate struggles.

We decided not to go to Toronto to watch beach  nationals.  The weather is not exactly ideal for a beach day and it turns out that most of the top teams in Canada are playing overseas in an FIVB event.  We are not exactly sure what our plans are but, that is fine with me.  It is nice to have nothing to do and figure things out as we go.  We may end up going to rib fest in Guelph as we have never been.  The only issue with that is that Jodi is gluten free now and I am certain there will not be too many gluten free ribs.

My head got rocked by a deck the other day at work.  I was push mowing in a back yard at full throttle and did not notice a low lying deck.  I walked right in to it and smoked my head.  I was knocked to the ground and was spitting out blood for a few minutes.  I guess the impact drove my teeth in to the tip of my tongue.  I lay down for a minute and then just kept right on push mowing.  I had a bit of a headache for a while but, not lingering affects since.  Good thing I have such a hard head.

The thing I have to remind myself is that I am good at what I do.  Yes I have made some mistakes of late but, I have also done some amazing work.  The trouble I seem to have when I have the downzies is that I can only see the mistakes I have made and not all the positive things I do on a weekly basis.  I have to slow things down and not put the weight of the world on my shoulders.  I can only do so much and have to look at my mistakes as a learning opportunity and not a condemnation of me as a person.

One week left in August and then three months to go.  Hard to believe five months of the season are almost done.  I am proud of myself for pushing through things amidst challenging circumstances.  I do miss Heather a lot and wish she was around right now.  Sounds like she will be down our way in the next while so I will get a chance to catch up.  Can't wait to get a big hug.

Hope you have a good weekend.  Take care,  Shawn.


 “Since I am suffering with type 2 bipolar disorder mainly on the depressive side of the bipolar disorder.
I am not afraid nor am I disappointed with it; if this is what God Almighty want me to have; I will make sure that I will make good use of this disorder; and, be the best person that I can be.”
― Temitope Owosela