Good Decision

I had a moment of clarity today.  My mind was clearer than it has been in a long time.  The anxiety and stress was absent from my daily musings.  My thoughts were not racing with a lot of negative bullshit.  It was my best day in a long time.

I decided today that I am going to go back for another season. It just became apparent to me today that it was the best choice for me.  I love working outside and love the customers we have.  I know all the properties and have a good idea of how to get to most of them.  I still have much to learn but, I seem to have a good skill set for the landscaping industry.  I take pride in my work and love seeing a good finished product.  My boss and his wife have been very good to me and we have been through a lot together.  They are good people and I think this may be our best year yet.  I love working with Jessie and Heather as they are two of my favorite people.  I know there is a good chance that there will be somebody new again but, I don't have to worry about that. 

A huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders today simply by making a decision and feeling good about the decision I made.  I still would like to try driving in the future but, I can look at that next winter.  I was pretty pissed off about not getting my learners on Friday but, there is not much I can do at this point.  I just have to be patient and hope for the best. 

Battery is going to die so I will end here.  Today was a good day and I am going to enjoy it right till the end.  Take care,  Shawn.