The Big Four

I have today off due to the snow we got overnight and in to this morning. It is Ollie's 4rth birthday today. I should be happy but, am battling a bout of depression. Still thinking about yesterday. At least I made it two weeks before dealing with some of these thoughts and emotions. I was bound to battle the downzies at some point. I know there are some things I could force myself to do to help my mental state but, am content hiding a way on my bed at the moment.                                                    

I took my dad out for breakfast today for his birthday. He turned 67 last Friday. I feel fortunate to have had this much time with him on earth as a tree limb almost ended his life when I was ten years old. He has always looked out for me these last few years and had encouraging words. I have not always been the best son and I hope I can make him proud one day.

Hard to believe that Ollie turned four today. Seems just like yesterday we were bringing him home as a puppy. He may never know the immense impact he has had on me in his life thus far. I am getting emotional just thinking about it. There is no way I would have pushed through many things without his help. Jodi and I always joke we should get Ollie a service vest which may not be a bad idea. It does not matter if I am down or my mind is racing with negative shit. Ollie still loves me the same and is still so excited to see me when I walk in that door. Thanks for being you Ollie.

Hope you have a good day. Shawn.