Damn Back

I did not sleep well last night.  My back is in rough shape and I am having issues walking on my right side.  I know exactly what the problem is but, have not been able to get in to physiotherapy.  I love my physio clinic but, am a bit frustrated that they do not hold some spots for same day appointments.  Whenever I have a serious ailment, it seem like I can never get in to see them for at least a week which does not suit me.  Unfortunately, I may have to miss a day of work on Monday as there is no way I could get through another day with the pain I am experiencing.  I know I could get in during the day on Monday but, would miss being at work as we made some good progress on fall clean ups this week.

We have made some good progress on fall clean ups considering the weather we have had to deal with and the fact that there is only two of us.  Thursday was a miserable day but, I tried to make the best of it.  Nobody enjoys being out in some of the weather we have had but, it is part of the territory at this point.  If I had to guess,  I would say that we had another two, maybe three weeks left.  Seems like an eternity a way but, we will get there eventually.  I am really looking forward to that last day and having some well deserved down time.

My mind has been steadfast in maintaining a healthy balance in my life.  Monday night was an immense struggle but, I managed to push through and have a great week.  I have been able to keep my thoughts in check and limit the depressive side of my disorder.  I am aware that the winter will be a challenge as it looks as though I will be plowing snow.  Shifts for plowing often go through the night and that would be pose some issues for me.  I have no problem working at night,  I would just have to have a discussion with my doctor as to when I would take my night time medication.  I am thinking I would take it first thing in the morning as I would often be sleeping during the day.  It is very important that I make sure my wellness remains my focus and that I am taking measures to make sure that continues through the winter.  I have some anxieties about what I will be taking on but, am confident it will all work out in a positive way.

Jodi is very excited about decorating for the holiday season today.  We got our first fake tree last weekend on sale and I am actually quite pleased with it.  It came with lights in it as well and definitely exceeded my expectations.  I will miss real trees at times but, this one suits our needs the best and will last for a long time.  Jodi loves making our place look festive and I will try my best to help her.  Unfortunately, I will be limited as to what I can do.  I took Ollie for a walk this morning and it was a struggle walk a short distance.  I have already taken some Advil so hopefully that will help ease the pain a bit.

I will write again tomorrow.  Hope you have a wonderful weekend.  Take care,  Shawn.

“Mental pain is less dramatic than physical pain, but it is more common and also more hard to bear. The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden: it is easier to say “My tooth is aching” than to say “My heart is broken.”
― C.S. Lewis, The Problem of Pain