Feeling Much Better

Yesterday was a better day.  I was feeling more like myself and a little more positive about things.  I have had really good sleeps the last few nights which has really helped.  I feel rested.

I cannot beat myself up for deciding not to plow or salt anymore.  I made a decision based on my overall wellness and that is the most important thing.  I may have let some people down in the process but, I cannot worry about that.  I tried something out and realized it was not for me.  I definitely gained a greater respect for guys who plow and salt year after year.  It takes a certain kind of person to be able to handle the rigors of working at making roads and parking lots safe overnight while the rest of us sleep.  I know now that I cannot work overnight in any capacity.  It just not fit with my medications and is not worth the risk to my mental state.  I have come too far and want to progress, not regress.

I had a chance to go to the Landscape Ontario meeting with my boss.  It was nice to catch up with him and get out of the house for a bit.  The speaker was a good one and I enjoyed listening to him.

I did make my first trip to the gym in quite some time yesterday.  It felt great to push some weight around and run on the treadmill for a bit.  I am going to make it part of my daily routine and know it will benefit both my body and mind.  I have put on more weight this winter than normal so I have my work cut out for me.  I will start dropping weight fairly quickly if I stick with it.

I may play some hoops tonight.  Dave asked me if I would be available.  Basketball was a big part of my life when I was younger so it will be good to shoot around a bit.  I know I will be a little rusty but, it should be fun.

The fact that we own our own house now has finally sunk in and it feels awesome.  I could not fully appreciate it as my mood has fluctuated so much over the last week.  Jodi and I worked really hard to get to this point and I am proud we were finally able to do it.

Does not feel like it right now but, spring is not too far a way.  I cannot wait to get going and see our customers again.  Last season was a tough one but, I have a feeling this year will be great.

Hope this finds you well.  Take care,  Shawn.