A Little Racy

Today was a little challenging.  I had a difficult time slowing my mind down.  It was racing. I was tired. I felt overwhelmed. I left work early to come home.  I slept for a couple hours and had a shower.  I am feeling much better now.

The season is winding down.  It has been a slow year for hours this year.  I make a good hourly rate but, we simply did not get enough hours.  I ran in to the same situation last year at times and I believe it may be time for a change.  That in itself is very scary to me.  I have found success again at my current job and I am well liked as a person and respected for my work ethic.  And I have no idea what path my life will take next year.  I have considered many options but, will need to take some time to think things through.  I cannot simply take another job for the sake of working.  I have to be very careful that I choose something that I will be successful at, I will enjoy and that I can make the money that I deserve to be making.  I have to choose a path that will enable me to maintain some amount of mental stability.  I want to work for a company that appreciates the work I do and I want to feel valued as an employee.  I want to continue to prove that I am capable of providing a level of excellence at my vocation that very few others possess.  I am sure that something will present itself to me in the winter months.  I have to stay positive and remember the successes I have had in the last few years. 

I would like to start uploading some videos next year.  Just some how to videos in terms of basic pruning.  I see so many properties in my travels at work where, there is both a lack of pruning and also a lack of proper pruning techniques.  I was fortunate to learn from the best and I take great pride in my abilities to prune a variety of plants, shrubs and trees.  As I have mentioned many times, pruning is my happy place.  It is the only time when my mind is truly at ease and I am thankful I was introduced to the practice.

I hope you are doing well.  Enjoy the rest of your week.  Take care,  Shawn.

There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.”
― Laurell K. Hamilton, Mistral's Kiss