The Batmobile

Life can be hilarious sometimes.

Tuesday was my first day back to work in four months,  I was off for the winter.  Going back to work came with a rush of anxiety and fear.  I have a hell of a time with transitions and always plan for the worst in my head.  The day before I went back I was having quite a shitty day.  My mood was all over the place.  Felt like I was having panic attacks.  I spent part of the day sobbing like a baby.  I know this sounds like a bit much but,  that is where my mind takes me sometimes.  Taking the car for a cross country tour sounded like a much better idea than facing going back to work.

So with all that build up,  Tuesday came.  Jodi had sent me an e-mail the previous night telling me that I could borrow her belief in me until I found my own.  This was an amazing gesture and helped my confidence immensely.  I woke up feeling not too bad about the day ahead.  Had my morning coffees, walked Ollie and headed out the door for my twenty five minute drive to work.

About five minutes in to my drive,  the strangest thing happened.  I saw the Batmobile approaching on the opposite side of the road.  That's right, I said the Batmobile.  I had to take a second look to make sure I was not hallucinating but, there it was.  I am not saying it was the one from the movie but,  it was a Batmobile nonetheless.  Pretty damn funny!

So after that,  I knew that the day was going to be not too bad.  I mean, how do you have a bad day after seeing a Batmobile on the way to work.  I worked with my boss at his house.  Their septic bed had to be replaced.  Their backyard looked like a mine field.  I did a lot of digging and shoveling.  It was a pretty hot day for March so I worked up a good sweat.  It was pretty physical work after being off for so long but,  I think it went well.  I have never cheated anyone when it comes to manual labor.  I always work as hard as I possibly can.  I ran out of steam near the end of the day but, think I did pretty well considering.

The interesting aspect of all this is that things in my life are never as bad as I imagine them to be.  All that stress and anxiety for what turned out to be a really good day.  I think I will attempt to take things in stride a little more often.  Life is so complex at times so why waste time focusing on what "might" happen in the future and enjoying more of the journey.  I will let you know how that works out for me.

I hope that if any of you are struggling on a certain day,  that you too will see a Batmobile on the way to work.

Take care,  Shawn.