A Bit Off

I am feeling a bit off today.  Cannot quite put my finger on it as my day was not too different than most.  Guess I am getting scared of going back to work in a month.  I am still not sure exactly where that will be but, anxiety always follows me when transitioning back in to employment.  I am good at landscaping so I really have no reason to be nervous.  I know what to expect and know that it is something I can be successful at.  Self doubt always creeps in when it comes to jobs.  I always doubt and second guess myself.  I worry about things I do not need to worry about and my mood often deteriorates.

I did not get to the gym today so that could have something to do with my mind set.  I always feel better after I work out.  I did not go today because I did squats for the first time in a long time and my back is now killing me.  I will make a point to go tomorrow.

I am also nervous about our future real estate ventures.  The house we are living in is going to be sold in the next few months.  We rent from our family and they would like to sell.  So we can either buy this one or look at purchasing our first home elsewhere.  We are not exactly living large so the financial pressure of buying a home is stressful for me.  I know it will all work out somehow but, I feel overwhelmed by it all.  I really enjoy living in this house and ultimately would like to stay.  Hopefully we can make it happen.

I did walk Ollie today but, did not get the same enjoyment out of it that I usually do.  I was just in one of those moods that I get stuck in some times.  Ollie did not get to go off leash today as yesterday was quite the adventure.  Maybe we will try again tomorrow.

Tomorrow is a new day and as my Dad always says, "This too will pass".

Happy Wednesday

Shawn