Sunday, 18 March 2012

The Sun is Back Baby!!!!

The sun has been back in full force this week,  filling the sky with its brilliance.  I almost feel guilty for the beautiful week we had as so many went down south for the march break.  They will come back to the life that spring has injected in to our lives here.

The great weather means that work is right around the corner.  It did not work out in Fergus so I have decided to go back to the same landscaping company as last year.  I do enjoy the work, am good at it and enjoy the people I work with.  It is a good fit for me.  I think it was hard for Jodi to understand my hesitation about going back to such a good situation.  I realize all the positive aspects of the job but, my mind always plans for the worst case scenario.  I am already worrying about situations that are not even here yet.  I think that once I get the first day out of the way,  it might become easier for me mentally.  I just get so anxious with the build up to going back after being a way for the last four months.  I am more aware of my moods now and hopefully will be better suited to handle challenges.  Of course there are going to be some tough days but,  I am going to attempt to take it one step at a time.  The only day I need to worry about right now is today.  Tomorrow is not here yet and Yesterday is gone.  I am also going to try not to rush things at work.  I was always in such a hurry to finish jobs instead of appreciating the individual steps in the process.

I went to a therapy session with a guy named Steve on Friday.  It had been quite some time since I have talked to someone in that setting.  It was not too bad,  always good to let things out a bit.  He specializes in cognitive behavior therapy which I have some experience with.  There are aspects of this particular therapy I can apply to my life but,  I am looking for something a little different.  Steve is also a lot older so it may be hard for me to relate to.  I also have had the best connections with therapists that have been through similar struggles as me which I am quite certain,  he has not.  The best counselor I have ever talked to was a guy named John.  He had been through similar struggles in his life,  was a great listener and gave me some great insight to facing life with conviction.  I think I might e-mail him to see if he can recommend somebody.  Think that was the first and last 150 dollar session with Steve,  I am in the wrong business.

Take care,  Shawn

"Laughter is a key to happiness"




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