Happy Thursday

Today has been a pretty low key day for me.  I took Ollie for a run first thing this morning and then we drove up to the Wellington Advertiser to pick up the paper.  I wanted to look at the help wanted section to see if anything caught my eye.

I found a really good job advertised as a roll off driver for the County Waste Management department.  I meet all the qualifications and it pays quite well.  I have nothing to lose by applying and I have to believe that I have a reasonable shot at getting an interview.  This same job actually came up in the paper last summer.  Both Jodi and my parents had encouraged me to apply for it last year but, I was hesitant as I had already committed myself for the season and I wanted to honor that commitment.  If I do not get an interview, then I haven't lost anything and at least I can say I made the effort. 

I have another therapy session next Tuesday.  It was unfortunate I could not get in this week but, I am happy I will have that to look forward to.  I have been staying positive and trying to challenge my negative thinking patterns.  But it will be good to talk through them with her again.  I only have four or five sessions available with her but, I need to make a concerted effort to maintain a connection with some form of therapy moving forward.  I live with a mental disorder and I cannot put my wellness on the shelf anymore.  I am not going to break cycles or find success with whatever comes next in my life unless I am connected with a professional that can help me process my thoughts and emotions.  I have already put far too much on other people at times and I need to take responsibility for my mental well being.  I will always have the support of people in my life, I just need to learn to fight for myself a bit.

Happy Thursday. Have a good weekend.  Take care,  Shawn.

"To all the people over the years who have put me down and called me crazy, I don't know if you could survive a day in my mind and the truth is, I would never wish this struggle on my worst enemy.  I just want them to know that they are wrong: I AM worthy."

Scarlett Kathleen