Positive Strides

Well, I must say that the last two weeks have gone very well for me.  My mood and overall mental state has improved immensely compared to the last time I wrote in my blog.  My new position has been exactly what I needed at this point in my life.  I have not had the same responsibility or pressure and have found success with my role.  There has been no stress or anxiety and I have been able to leave work behind when I get in my car to drive home.  I have built up a good reputation in my short time there and have even picked up a nick name.  A guy I work with started calling me bulldozer or dozer after my first day and it seems to have caught on.  I am not even sure my foreman even knows my first name as he started calling me dozer too.  They used to call me animal at a golf course I worked at for the way I worked and they seem to appreciate the way I work at my new job too, thus the new nick name.  I think that was what I had a really hard time with when I was let go from my first job this year.  No one has ever questioned my work ethic like that and those that have worked with me over the years would tell you that I always work hard and push myself every day. 

I was able to speak with a counselor over the phone on Monday night which helped me prepare for the week ahead.  We spoke about strategies I could use to help me achieve success.  We talked about living in the moment rather than thinking ten steps ahead of myself which I have had issues with.  Also not to create a negative scenario in my mind before it even happens.  Just breaking the day in to manageable sections and being conscience of my mindset.  Challenging negative thought patterns and allowing myself the freedom to not to be hindered by self doubt.  I have gained my confidence back and I plan on building on the success of the last few weeks. 

I am doing a job on my own today again.  Some more top dressing and then mulching.  I get a chance to work with Jeff again which I thoroughly enjoyed last Saturday.  It is going to be quite humid today so hopefully we can get things finished this morning.  I plan on going for a swim after and then Jodi and I are heading to a play later this afternoon.  We had a chance to learn how to use the ball machine at tennis last night which was a lot of fun.  It was a work out for sure but, was definitely a great way to work on ball striking.

I must give the Toronto Raptors a lot of credit.  They lost in six games to the Cleveland last night but, they have so much to be proud of.  They took the city of Toronto and the whole country on quite a ride this year and they gained a lot of respect around the league.  The fan support was amazing and the future looks bright for this team.  I would say 95% of people thought the Raptors would be swept by the Cavs and I must admit that, I was one of those people.  To show the resolve they did after games 1 and 2 shows so much character and it displays what hard work and determination can do.  They played some amazing basketball in games 3 and 4 I am proud of the fact that they did not just simply lay down.  Looking forward to next season.  Congrats on an amazing year Raps.

Well that is it for me today.  Feels good to write this morning.  Hope this finds you well.  Take care,  Shawn.

 “Negativity is positively bad for your health.”
― Eleanor Brownn